I’m jealous.”Īll of those traits are common for Aspies. He can be cold, arrogant, driven, “difficult”, curious, eccentric, ill-tempered. Why? Because as another fan put it: “He is allowed by story conventions to be many things that I as a brainy woman would like to have permission to be. As a girl watching Blake’s 7, did I want to be cool and sexy Jenna, the glamorous space smuggler? No. I keep seeing stuff about girls thinking they are boys because they identify with male characters…or want to be the male characters. To give a person time to figure out if they can, in fact, separate fantasy from fact. Thus the crying need for more mature brain development before such irrevocable decisions are made. So much better to accept fantasy as fantasy, to be enjoyed as fantasy. You know? But the price of chasing that male body, in terms of physical and psychological health, is so incredibly high. So when someone else online tells you that transition can MAKE you look like that, instead of this weak little girl you see yourself as … I can see how it’s so so tempting. When you step away, look in the mirror, and you expect to see whatever you think of as “male” (which in an rpg is pretty invariably a good looking and powerful dude) - when you don’t see that, it’s gotta piss you off at some level, every day. I will add, briefly, that I do wonder about the effect on the brain of a female-bodied person in inhabiting only male personae for literally thousands of hours, so that your internal image of yourself is constantly reinforced as male.